Chapter 205 Don’t you love me anymore?
As soon as he walked out of the study, Han Jing saw Li Yuehu head-on. A hint of surprise appeared in his eyes, and then he smiled gently.
"Yuehu, you woke up so soon?" Han Jing went up to her, gently hugged her in his arms, and asked distressedly: "Your hands are very cold, do you feel cold?"
"I'm not cold." Li Yuehu shook his head, his eyes were empty, as if he was talking to him, or as if he was talking to himself.
Han Jing felt a slight pain in his heart. It was not until this moment that he admitted that Li Yuehu was suffering from depression, because she looked so strange, different from a normal person.
In the past, Han Jing had also looked up relevant scientific knowledge about depression, but he always thought it was nonsense. The so-called depression was nothing more than being too idle and thinking too much. He thought he would be fine if he did some bricklaying for a few days.
But now, Han Jing's thoughts have changed a little. He still doesn't quite understand depression, but he has begun to take it seriously.
Li Yuehu clearly didn't say a word, but Han Jing inexplicably felt that she was in pain, as if her soul was wailing and asking for help, but no one could hear such a sound.
Han Jing was afraid because he couldn't accept the possibility of losing Li Yuehu.
If Li Yuehu really didn't exist in this world, he would go crazy and would want to leave with her.
"Yuehu, I love you, I love you the most..."
Han Jing hugged her tightly, saying that he loved her over and over again, with such deep affection that it was touching.
If it were in the past, Li Yuehu would hug him and tell him that she loved him, but now she didn't say a word, as if she didn't understand what he was doing.
"Han Jing, what are you doing?"
Han Jing paused, feeling bitter, "I'm saying I love you, but you don't say you love me?"
Li Yuehu looked at him intently, then looked away, making it clear that he would not say anything.
She didn't say anything, for no other reason, she just didn't know why she should say it, and what would happen if she said it?
What's more...
Does she still love Han Jing? If so, does it come from the heart?
Li Yuehu didn’t understand, she really didn’t understand, so she chose to remain silent, so that she wouldn’t say too much and make more mistakes.
However, because she didn't speak, Han Jing's heart felt like it was thrown into a frying pan, and it hurt so much that he could hardly breathe.
I never expected that Li Yuehu would not say that she loved him. What does that mean?
Is she still angry?
Or...she no longer loves herself?
Do not!impossible!
Han Jing rejected this guess in an instant and hugged the woman in his arms tighter, as if this would give him a deep sense of security.
"Yuehu, you love me..."
She has loved me for so long and so deeply, how could she just stop loving me?
Han Jing didn't believe it, and didn't dare to believe it. He could only attribute all her abnormalities to her unhappiness, so he wanted to make her happy.
"Yuehu, are you still tired? Can I sleep with you for a while?"
As long as he could make her happy, Han Jing would do anything, he just hoped that she would stop being so cold.
It's so hard to live like this, it seems like every minute and every second is a torture.
Han Jing's tone was humble and contained a hint of pleading, which made people unable to refuse or disappoint him.
However, Li Yuehu just glanced at him and pushed him away.
"I don't want to sleep. I want to go out for a walk."
Han Jing was stunned for a moment, and the uneasiness in his heart became even stronger.
Was he pushed away?
This...how could this happen?
Han Jing looked at her retreating back. Although they were only a few steps away, he felt that she was so far away, as if he would never catch up with her in this lifetime.
"Moon Lake!"
Suddenly, Han Jing shouted and grabbed Li Yuehu's wrist in a flash, preventing her from leaving.
Li Yuehu lowered her head and pushed his hand away calmly, "Don't pull me, you're hurting my wound."
She wasn't in pain, she just didn't want to be pulled by him, so she lied.
Han Jing felt guilty. He wanted to pull her but didn't dare to do it again. He asked nervously, "Does your arm still hurt?"
"Ok!"
So, don't touch her anymore, don't get close to her anymore.
Han Jing hesitated to speak, feeling that she said that on purpose, which made him feel even more uncomfortable.
Afraid of irritating her, Han Jing pretended to know nothing and asked with a forced smile: "Yuehu, it's still early now. I'll go out with you later, okay?"
It's just past five o'clock now, no one would want to go out for a walk at this time.
Li Yuehu refused and insisted on leaving right away.
"I'm just taking a walk, okay?"
She was confused. Even if she could be a vase or a canary, couldn't she go out for a walk?
"Of course!" Han Jing pretended to be relaxed and gently took her other hand. "Yuehu, I happen to be free. I'll go out with you."
"it is good……"
Li Yuehu is fine, it doesn’t matter whether she is good or bad, as long as she can be left alone.
Now, Li Yuehu actually began to like the feeling of loneliness. The feeling as if she was the only one in the world was so wonderful that it made her body and mind peaceful.
Outside, it was just getting light and a little chilly.
Han Jing held her hand and walked with her aimlessly. Instead of calming down, his mood became even more uneasy.
So Han Jing frequently looked at the woman beside him, and saw that she was just walking with her head down and didn't even look at him, which made him feel a little uncomfortable.
So this is what it feels like to be ignored?
It’s so quiet…
The two were the most familiar people and once loved each other the most, but now they are silent, as if they were strangers.
Gradually, Han Jing couldn't stand it anymore, and tentatively scratched Li Yuehu's palm, sending her a signal.
Li Yuehu lowered his head and looked at Han Jing again, as if silently asking him what was wrong.
Han Jing choked up, unable to utter a single word as he looked into her overly clear eyes.
However, neither of us moved forward. You just looked at me and I looked at you, and time seemed to have stopped.
"Chiji..."
A bird flew onto the road, hopping around and chirping, interrupting the dead silence.
Han Jing turned his head away, not daring to look into Li Yuehu's eyes again, but his mood became heavier, as if a huge heavy stone was pressing on him.
"Moon Lake, there is a bird here..."
Because the air was suffocating, Han Jing made small talk.
At this time, Li Yuehu was also looking at the bird, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.
"How wonderful it is that they are free, unlike me."
Han Jing paused for a moment, thinking that she was thinking of him, and quickly said, "Yuehu, don't think too much. I won't restrict your freedom. You can go wherever you want during the day."
"You can go to the orphanage to help, or visit the child in the hospital!"
Li Yuehu was a little dazed, and his tone was a little more melancholy: "That child is gone, Xiaoyuan is dead."
Han Jing pursed his lips. He didn't expect that she was still lying, and he felt uncomfortable.