Chapter 47: Top
"But... you know what? This hurts."
"It's nothing compared to the pain I felt that day when I was lying in the delivery room and my lower body was torn apart."
“At that time…”
"I watched the midwife holding a pair of scissors, trying to cut open my flesh and take the baby out of my belly. I was so scared, so scared. While I was terrified, I comforted myself that it was good for the baby to be alive."
"But by then I was numb to the pain. I knew that the moment the scissors fell on my body, it might not be as painful as giving birth. What did it matter? What did a little skin breakage matter?"
"What is wrong with me?"
"How come I can hold on despite the excruciating pain during childbirth, but when my feet get a little rubbed and I get a little tired, I cry out that I can't go on? What's wrong with me? That kind of pain is obviously tens of thousands of times more painful!!"
The way up the mountain is very tiring.
The soles of my feet are rubbed and it hurts a lot.
but--
If compared with the difficult delivery in the delivery room that day.
Compared with cutting the genitals open with scissors.
Aunt Zhao thought.
This little pain was only one ten-thousandth of a thing, just a drizzle, but she could even get through a difficult birth, so why couldn't she endure this little pain and fatigue? She didn't understand, she really didn't understand!
I don’t understand why I had such horrible and ridiculous thoughts along the way!
In this world, is there any pain that is more painful than difficult childbirth or having your genitals torn apart alive?
Why couldn't she hold on?
"Cry, cry."
"Because before today, no one told you that there was another way to go besides getting married and having children."
Shen Wei patted Aunt Zhao on the back, letting her tears wet her clothes. She gently comforted her, "You have never seen the scenery on the top of the mountain."
“They live on this land.”
“Never.”
"They thought that the mountain top was a flood and a beast, and a bottomless abyss. But the house was a stable place, a support, and the beauty of everyone's life."
"Now, do you understand why I would rather drink the Luozi soup than stay in the Marquis' Mansion to compete for Xie Yuchuan's favor? Do you understand why I tried my best to leave?"
"Physical training is hard, drawing a bow and swinging a sword is hard, and running a cake shop is even harder."
"But, isn't it not hard to stay in the Marquis' Mansion?"
"Just like the mountain road you walked today, the process was so tiring and painful, but how does this tiredness and pain compare to your difficult labor, compared to when you were lying in bed waiting for Xie Yuchuan to decide whether you would live or die?"
"Does it still hurt?"
Aunt Zhao hugged Shen Wei and burst into tears.
She kept shaking her head, as if she wanted to cry out all the humiliation she had experienced during this period: "It doesn't hurt anymore, it doesn't hurt at all... Shen Wei, you are right, you are right."
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu"
"It's not that I'm right, but everything I do is what my soul wants." Shen Wei corrected.
"And now, it's what you want too."
Xiaoman sat on the grass, wiping her tears with sobs.
Tired of crying, Xiaoman lay on the grass.
Looking up at the sky.
Endless blue sky, white clouds, and gentle breeze blowing on your face.
The view in the Marquis' Mansion was obviously the same, and it was the same sky, but for some reason, in this place, Xiaoman felt unprecedented ease and happiness.
She likes this feeling, she likes it very much.
she thinks,
If only one day in the future, I could lie here and look at the blue sky and feel the breeze.
It seemed that she could give up her status, the favor and wealth of the marquis, because, compared with the fearful life in the mansion, this kind of freedom could not be compensated by material things.
"Xiaoman seems to have fallen asleep." Shen Wei turned his head and found Xiaoman sleeping on the lawn with a smile on his face.
"Shen Wei, I'm sorry for what happened before."
"It's okay." Shen Wei smiled brightly: "I forgive you!"
"You...you are so nice. I want to cry again."
"Oh, by the way, Shen Wei, are you thirsty? I just saw there are fruits there, it seems to be a very tall fruit tree..."
"Want to eat?"
"Kind of."
"I'll go shoot them down."
"can you?"
"How will you know if you don't try?"
this day.
Shen Wei stood on the peak, looking at the towering fruit trees, facing the sunshine, drew the bow, put an arrow on it, half-squinted one eye, and aimed at the fruit on the tree trunk.
Aunt Zhao stood beside Shen Wei expectantly, staring at the fruits on the tree.
"Zheng!"
"Zheng!"
"Zheng!"
Aunt Zhao will remember this scene for the rest of her life.
same.
A slender figure hidden not far away had a panoramic view of the scene before him.
The young man in a loose Taoist robe hid behind a tree, looking at Shen Wei with tenderness and affection in his eyes, watching her face with a relaxed and joyful smile, watching her run, watching her laugh heartily.
Watching her bathed in the sun,
Look at her high spirits.
The man held a string of Buddhist beads in his hand, with a thankful smile on his face: "Weiwei, long time no see."
"Master, you have come all the way here without stopping, don't you see me?" The domineering subordinate beside him glanced at Shen Wei, was distracted for a few seconds, then retracted his gaze and asked respectfully.
"Gone."
The man chuckled: "I'll just look at her from a distance, just one look, that's enough."
"You cherish Miss Shen so much and cannot bear to see her suffer even a little. Why don't you just snatch her away from Lord Xie?"
"Lord Xie already has a legal wife. Miss Shen follows him without even a legitimate status."
"I really don't understand. With your status and position, you are many times better than Lord Xie in every way. You only have Miss Shen in your eyes. You will definitely give Miss Shen the best life and ensure that she will live a prosperous life."
"Why...don't you let her see it?"
The subordinate blurted out everything that he had been holding in his heart for a while.
But the man's eyes dimmed.
He twisted his hand holding the Buddhist beads, and the beads slid through his fingertips one by one. His pupils seemed to only accommodate Shen Wei's bright and flamboyant figure: "I can't give her the best life."
The subordinate shook his head: "You can't give it to me in this whole world, I'm afraid no one can give it to me."
"The glory that outsiders desire is not worth mentioning in her eyes, so I can't give it to her."
"Taking Wei Wei away from the Marquis' Mansion and snatching her into my hands is nothing more than letting her jump from one cage to another larger cage. She should be free, and this shouldn't happen."
"Whether it's Xie Yuchuan or me, we're just shackles."