Chapter 290 I Have Not Forgotten
Li Yuehu admitted that she had not forgotten anything and she was back.
But her admission undoubtedly dealt a heavy blow to Han Jing, making him even more flustered. He wanted to hold her hand, but he didn't dare to do it, for fear of angering her.
"Yuehu, you're not leaving, are you?"
At this moment, Han Jing seemed to be asking, but in fact he was begging, and even his tone was so humble.
After Li Yuehu disappeared, Han Jing was completely panicked and almost died. Regret and pain were like thousands of steel needles, piercing her heart all the time, making her breathless with pain.
In this world, he can lose everything, but he cannot bear to lose Li Yuehu again. That feeling is too painful, really too painful.
However, Li Yuehu did not say anything, but just looked at him quietly, with no sadness or joy in his eyes, just as always.
But it was this kind of look that was the most difficult for Han Jing to accept. He would rather Li Yuehu beat him or scold him than see her expressionless look, which would only make him feel miserable.
Although he thought so, Han Jing didn't dare to say it out loud. This was a secret known to both of them. It was maintaining a delicate balance, but once it was broken, no one could predict the consequences.
Han Jing thought, he didn't dare to hope for anything else. As long as Li Yuehu could come back and was willing to see him, it would be good enough. He couldn't ask for more.
"Yuehu, luckily you didn't disappear, you came back..."
As long as she comes back, she can ask him to do anything, even die.
Li Yuehu said: "Yes, I'm back."
Although she changed her identity, she did come back.
It’s a pity that they can’t go back to the past.
At this moment, Han Jing suddenly remembered her identity, and seeing that she was carrying a bag, he asked in a panic, "Yuehu, why did you come out in the middle of the night with a bag on your back?"
"I left the Li family and don't want to go back."
When Han Jing heard this, he thought that she was kicked out by the Li family. Then he thought that she was an orphan and had always longed for a home. How sad she must be now!
"Moon Lake..."
Han Jing's eyes were hurt. He felt heartbroken and indescribable pity for her, and he even choked up.
Li Yuehu said, "I'm fine. I no longer long for a home."
Whether it is family affection or love, she no longer demands it.
At this moment, Han Jing understood what she had not said, but felt even more heartbroken. He wished he could go back to the past and beat his former self to death.
"Yue Hu, since you have left the Li family, you can be with me. I will never let you down or make you sad again."
Han Jing felt sad and said these words almost in a pleading tone, his eyes were so cautious, as if he was afraid of being ruthlessly rejected.
Without waiting for Li Yuehu to answer, Han Jing took her to the corner of the room, pulled off the covers one by one, and revealed hundreds of paintings.
“Yuehu, I’m also learning to paint. We will have more common topics in the future, and I will understand you better.”
When those hundreds of paintings were of Li Yuehu, the scene was still very shocking.
On quiet nights, Han Jing's regret and longing would reach a climax, and even work could not numb him, so he drew Li Yuehu's appearance almost in a self-masochistic way.
But the more he painted, the more he missed her; the more he missed her, the more he wanted to paint.
In the end, it seemed like a vicious circle, and also like one-sided self-abuse, so more and more portraits appeared.
However, Han Jing does not have much artistic talent, and is not actually a very good painter, and has not made much progress, but one can see boundless love and attachment in the portraits.
"Yuehu, you like painting, and now I like painting too. We can paint together and talk about art and painters in the future."
"As long as you are willing, I can learn more painting techniques. Although I can't compare with you, I can learn!"
"I just……"
Han Jing paused, his expression becoming increasingly bitter, and he was hesitant to say the second half of the sentence.
He looked at Li Yuehu with cautious eyes, completely different from his previous appearance, like a prisoner awaiting trial.
Unexpectedly, Li Yuehu nodded lightly and did not say anything hurtful.
"Okay, I won't leave."
Speaking of which, when she first came to this world, she lived here for a long time after leaving the orphanage, so now she can be considered to be revisiting the old place.
In fact, Li Yuehu didn’t know why he agreed. Maybe he was just too soft-hearted.
After hearing this, Han Jing's first reaction was confusion, as if he was hallucinating.
"You...you agreed?"
"I agreed."
Han Jing's eyes lit up, and were instantly filled with great ecstasy. He hugged her in his arms, feeling extremely grateful to God for blessing him and allowing him to find Li Yuehu.
This time, he will never lose his beloved again.
"Yuehu, it's great, it's really great..."
Han Jing said the same words over and over again, and at the end he choked up and his eyes turned red.
Great, he found Moon Lake again.
Over the past year, Han Jing was almost going crazy from the day and night torment. He could not accept a world without Li Yuehu, and he didn't know how to survive.
So, he started smoking and drinking, taking the antidepressants she once took, and experiencing the pain she once went through...
But the more this happened, the more tormented Han Jing became, because he gradually understood the despair and pain that Li Yuehu once felt. That feeling was so painful that it could drive a person crazy.
It was after she started smoking that Han Jing finally understood why she also started smoking. Was it to numb herself?
Han Jing's eyes were red, and he asked carefully: "Yuehu, I really know I was wrong. Let's start over, okay?"
Li Yuehu was a little dazed, with a bitter smile on his face. "Start over? How can I start over?"
Can he turn back time?
Han Jing said: "I will pursue you again, propose to you again, and give you a grand wedding, okay?"
The word "wedding" is a thorn in the hearts of both of them.
Han Jing regretted it and wanted to make it up to her by giving her a more grand wedding.
By then, even if his leg was broken or he was dying, he would never leave the wedding.
After hearing this, Li Yuehu fell into silence for a moment, then slowly shook his head.
"No, I don't want to marry you anymore."
Han Jing's whole body stiffened, and he looked panicked and hurt for a moment, but he quickly concealed it.
"It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if we don't get married. We can get along like friends, or we can stay single or maintain the status quo. As long as you are happy, it doesn't matter what happens."
Afraid that she would overthink or change her mind, Han Jing grabbed her hand, his voice trembling: "Yuehu, as long as you are well, anything is fine."
Li Yuehu looked at him and couldn't help but sigh, "Han Jing, you weren't like this before."
Han Jing smiled bitterly, knowing that he deserved what he had done.
"Yuehu, I was wrong before. I really know I was wrong. Now I just want to make it up to you and will never let you down again."
"It's too late. I've given up on you. The person I want to capture now is Gu Suifeng."
Li Yuehu told the truth, which undoubtedly dealt a heavy blow to Han Jing.