Chapter 215 Han Jing, it’s time for you to leave.
Han Jing felt both guilty and ashamed.
He knew that he shouldn't leave at this time, but Ruyan kept crying, as if something really happened to her, and she had few friends, so how could he feel at ease?
Li Yuehu looked at him and didn't react much. After all, this was expected.
"Yuehu, I may have to leave first."
"understood."
When Han Jing heard this, there was a hint of surprise in his eyes, as if he didn't expect her reaction to be so calm. She neither asked any questions nor made a fuss, as if she was talking about a trivial matter.
For a moment, Han Jing panicked. He immediately sat down and grabbed Li Yuehu's hand, as if he wanted to give her some emotional affirmation.
"Yuehu, I will really be back soon. I won't be delayed for too long, and I won't do anything I shouldn't do. You believe me, okay?"
Li Yuehu put down his knife and fork, as if he was full, but also as if he had no appetite to eat anymore.
"I told you that you can go. You don't have to tell me."
Even if he told her, he would still go if he wanted to go. What was the point in saying anything?
Besides, if she told Han Jing not to go, would he listen?
You won’t listen.
Li Yuehu looked at him quietly, then pulled out her hand, saying lightly, "Han Jing, it's time for you to go."
At this time, Han Jing was even more surprised. He didn't dare to leave until he was sure of Li Yuehu's feelings.
“Yuehu, are you angry?”
She must be unhappy because of Liu Ruyan.
Until now, Han Jing still thought that she was speaking against her will and that she was pretending to be strong.
It can be said that Han Jing understands Li Yuehu, but he also doesn't understand her, because he has his own pride and persistence. When he is blinded by his emotions, he cannot make accurate judgments.
Li Yuehu did not give a direct answer, but asked a confused question: "Han Jing, why do you always think I'm angry?"
No matter what happened, his first reaction was that she was angry, she was making a fuss, or she was waiting for him to coax her.
But, it didn’t happen.
Li Yuehu thought, she had known this day would come, so why should she be angry?
Besides, wasn't she acting quite calm? She wasn't crying or making a fuss, so why did I feel like she was unhappy?
How should she express it so that others can feel her "happiness"?
Wanna laugh, or what?
But she really couldn't laugh anymore, and didn't know how to laugh.
"Han Jing, if I smile, you will believe that I am not angry, and that's fine."
Li Yuehu pulled the corners of his mouth and revealed a stiff smile. Not to mention that the smile did not reach his eyes, there was simply no emotion at all, as if he was wearing a thick mask.
In an instant, Han Jing suddenly thought of what Chen Tong had said.
He said that Li Yuehu's condition was not good and she had no emotions anymore.
Before this, Han Jing had scoffed at this speculation, thinking that how could a good person lose his emotions? Isn't this nonsense?
But now, after seeing Li Yuehu's numb and stiff smile, a flash of lightning seemed to pass through his mind, and he suddenly believed it a little.
Han Jing's face turned pale and he felt panic in his heart, as if something was getting out of control.
"Yuehu, don't laugh like that. You weren't like this before..."
Such a smile is really ugly, as if the corners of the mouth are held up by two invisible strings, which is scary.
Han Jing scratched his hair, feeling very painful, struggling between whether to leave or not.
He didn't understand. He just cared about his friend and didn't want Ruyan to get into trouble. Why was that not possible?
Li Yuehu looked at him, guessed his thoughts, and said, "You think I don't want you to leave, right?"
Han Jing raised his head and looked at her deeply, as if trying to see into the depths of her soul through her eyes, but failed.
At this moment, he could not see a trace of emotion in Li Yuehu's eyes, not even sadness or dissatisfaction, only endless indifference and ruthlessness, like a bottomless cold pond.
But it was this kind of look that caused him the most pain.
"Han Jing, please go."
Li Yuehu's next words completely shocked Han Jing. He seemed to have never expected such words to come out of her mouth.
“Yuehu, are you serious?”
"I'm serious!" Li Yuehu nodded vigorously. She was afraid that he wouldn't believe her, so she even swore on the spot.
"Han Jing, I didn't stop you from leaving. I've been asking you to leave. You just thought I was angry. I didn't want you to leave, but that's not the case."
"Whether you leave or not is your own choice. I don't care."
Now, she is no longer sad about Han Jing's departure. If she has to describe her mood, she should be a little irritated?
After all, she said the same thing over and over again. Why did Han Jing never believe it? Why did he insist that she admit that she was angry?
How could she admit that she wasn't angry?
"Ugh……"
Although she didn't feel sad or impatient, Li Yuehu felt that she should sigh at this time, so she sighed.
When Han Jing heard this sigh, it was as if a thunder exploded in his mind.
At a certain moment, Han Jing was shocked to find that Li Yuehu was so indifferent to him, like an icy sword piercing into his heart without warning.
For a moment, Han Jing showed an expression of disbelief, as if he couldn't believe that the woman who once smiled like a flower and loved him deeply would now treat him with such a cold attitude.
Panic surged into his heart like a tide, and his heartbeat lost its usual rhythm and became chaotic.
Han Jing's lips were dry and his hands were shaking unconsciously. He tried to recall what he had done wrong, but his mind was in a mess and he couldn't make any sense. However, uneasiness spread in his heart, like a wildly growing vine, tightly entwining his soul.
Han Jing loves her, but is also afraid of losing her, afraid that this indifference will become an unbridgeable gap between them.
After much thought, is it still because of Liu Ruyan?
Why? Why did she have to make things difficult for Ruyan?
Han Jing showed pain on his face. He still didn't believe that Li Yuehu really didn't care. He just thought that she was using cold violence to vent her inner emotions and force him to make a choice.
But couldn't he have both? Why did he have to choose?
Li Yuehu is his lover, and Liu Ruyan is an indispensable friend in his life. The two are different and neither can replace the other, so why can he only choose one?
“Yuehu, don’t push me anymore.”
Han Jing took a deep breath and felt like he was going crazy.
At this time, Liu Ruyan called again.