Chapter 30 Convinced

Chapter 30 Convinced

"Cough cough cough-"

"Aunt, are you finally awake?"

Aunt Zhao woke up in the middle of the night. She opened her eyes blankly and felt a dizzy pain in her head: "What happened to me... Miss Shen? Why are you here?"

The maid choked up and said, "Aunt, you cut your wrists and committed suicide during the day. Miss Shen sent someone to the outside of the mansion to invite a doctor to save you, and then she stayed in the room waiting for you to wake up."

"Auntie, please don't do stupid things again. You scared me to death."

suicide........

Aunt Zhao remembered.

She was really in a lot of pain during this period. She was tormented by the fact that the baby in her belly was stillborn, by Xie Yuchuan's ruthless words to protect the baby, and by the fact that she had no hope or expectations for the future.

She didn't want to open her eyes and face her terrible life.

So, she couldn't bear it anymore.

He chose to commit suicide to escape.

"You saved me again?"

Aunt Zhao propped up her weak and broken body and sat up. She coughed heavily a few times, with tears rolling down her cheeks: "Twice, twice......"

In this marquis's mansion, the person she despised the most was Shen Wei.

But unexpectedly, in the end, Shen Wei saved himself twice.

Aunt Zhao gave a self-deprecating laugh. For a moment, she didn't know how to face Shen Wei, who had always been at odds with her.

"Drink the medicine first." Shen Wei stood up, holding the boiled tonic, sitting beside the bed and feeding Aunt Zhao personally: "Qin Shuyu is a very good mistress, she is indeed different from other ladies."

"She is dignified, generous, polite, and kind. She has the pride of a noble family in her bones. She is unwilling to argue with concubines, and will not use any means to harass concubines."

"Even if you have no children and can no longer carry on Xie Yuchuan's family line, she won't say anything. At least she can make sure you have enough food and clothing."

"So, did you commit suicide because of Xie Yuchuan's ruthlessness, or because you indirectly killed the fetus?"

Words that touch your heart.

A tonic at just the right temperature for your lips.

The mysterious and unfathomable Shen Wei in front of me.

Aunt Zhao suddenly felt bitter in her heart. She looked at Shen Wei with tears in her eyes. She had many grievances piled up in her heart but she couldn't say a word.

Aunt Zhao wiped away her tears in self-mockery, opened her mouth and swallowed the medicine, and then asked the question that had been in her heart for several days: "Why did you save me?"

Shen Wei smiled and said, "Do you think I'm saving you?"

“Isn’t it…?”

"I guess so." Shen Wei thought for a moment, and scooped another spoonful of medicine to Aunt Zhao's mouth: "Saving you is like saving myself from the swamp. After all, I have been caught in the rain."

"I just can't stand seeing other women getting wet in the rain."

"If I encounter one, I always want to help."

When was it possible for two people to stay in the same room peacefully, and even have a good relationship to the point of feeding each other medicine?

When did the relationship between the two begin to change?

Was it the time when Aunt Zhao stood at the door and eavesdropped on the conversation between Madam and Shen Wei?

Or was it the time when Aunt Zhao saw Shen Wei fly backwards with her own eyes, his stomach hitting the corner of a chair, and he framed Xie Yuchuan?

Or...

Was it Aunt Zhao who was filled with guilt and insecurity, and who stood at the intersection of the garden several times, and wanted to stop Shen Wei several times to say sorry, but she couldn't bring herself to talk about that time several times?

Maybe both, but none of them matter anymore.

"I know that Madam is sensible. She is different from other mistresses in other mansions. She can tolerate concubines and doesn't have any twists and turns. She is very good. Madam is really very good..."

"But Miss Shen, my heart aches."

Aunt Zhao lowered her eyes and said, half crying and half laughing, "I don't even know what the pain is. I just feel so uncomfortable."

"You once said that we are both caged birds, so why bother fighting each other? Winning three points of land means losing half of your life... It was not until I lay in the delivery room that I felt that I was really a pet loved by my master."

"I took great pains to get someone to find the medicine for conceiving a child. It was me, it was me who dreamed of having a son, because my mother and grandmother's first three children were all daughters. I was afraid, I was afraid..."

"You know, as long as I give birth to a son, I will have a place in this marquis's mansion."

"But in the end I was pregnant with a boy, but it was a stillbirth. Can you tell me, was it a boy from the beginning... or did it become a boy because I took the fertility medicine?"

After listening to these last words, Shen Wei felt powerless and pathetic.

At this point, the question of whether the child is a boy or a girl is still a demon in Aunt Zhao's heart and a hurdle she cannot overcome.

Shen Wei didn't want to hide it from Aunt Zhao, nor did he want to tell a white lie, because Shen Wei felt that some things could not be kept vague any longer: "It's a boy in the first place, it's not a matter of the fertility medicine."

"Whether you give birth to a boy or a girl is not something you can decide, nor is it something your grandmother or mother can decide."

"It's the man's decision. If you want to blame someone, blame their own genes. Don't blame yourself. No medicine you take can change the fact that it's a boy or a girl."

Is that right?

Aunt Zhao stared at Shen Wei intently.

I saw sincerity, affirmation and determination in the other person's eyes.

She will never forget when her mother gave birth to three daughters in a row, everyone in the family scolded her, saying that her mother's stomach was not good enough to bear a son, and that she only gave birth to money-losing babies.

Even my father, who was one with my mother, despised my mother for being useless and even considered remarrying...

But now.

Shen Wei told her that it was not true, and that it was not the women's fault, but the men's own genes that were to blame.

"Heh." Aunt Zhao closed her eyes and laughed desperately.

"Now I finally understand why the Marquis likes you so much."

"I, I have no reason to hate you... Shen Wei, the Marquis is right, you are different from all the women in this harem, you are brave, outspoken, bright and unique."

"I am just like the others, a conservative woman cut from the same mold, soulless and with only a timid appearance. No wonder I can't attract him."

"I was not convinced at first, but now I am."

The atmosphere in the room was very depressing, as if even the air was bitter.

Shen Wei looked at Aunt Zhao, who looked lifeless.

suddenly,

She put down the medicine bowl and looked at the lifeless Aunt Zhao with burning eyes.

In the room, one person was lying and one was sitting.

The two pairs of eyes looked at each other in the air, one face was shining with dazzling light, while the other face was dull and lifeless, forming a sharp contrast.

At this moment, Aunt Zhao was suddenly stunned.

She saw something in Shen Wei's eyes that seemed to be about to burst out, and she saw Shen Wei say: "Aunt Zhao, do you want to become the kind of woman Xie Yuchuan likes?"